“life will be better in spring”

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It's around the period of halloween now and yeah i don't believe in dressing up for halloween but if i had to, i'd be a vampire. Why? i know this sounds disgusting but my nose bled and my mouth was literally stained in blood. i was just happily playing icy tower when i felt something cold run down into my mouth and it tasted metallic, like blood. I went to double check if it was blood and when i looked into the mirror, i just stared(normal humans would wipe it off, right?i just stared. my god...my brain must have died.i stared.stared.)this is going to be an emo post i guess(those who hate reading emo stuff don't read then...)the blood just kept flowing as i stared at it flow;it was like the refflection of my heart bleeding and i can't tell you how good it felt. it was as if all my emotions were fagging spilling out and i felt happy(i am so sadistic)but you know the weird thing is that my nose always bleeds one side at a time so i expect it to bleed again tomorrow. ANyways, i'm bored and i copied this quiz from some random blog i stumbled upon(no...i really have no idea whose blog it is);

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
erm...

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
no last relationship!I rock!seriously..

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
ryan...thanks to him i won the game(then the whole chain reaction was super funny)

5) Do you regret it?
hm...it sparked off a funny chain reaction

6) Have you ever been depressed?
yes

8) Are you a boy or girl?
girl

9) What is your relationship status?
truth or not?

10) How do you want to die?
i don't want to choose how i die. i want it to be a surprise that will lead me on to the next phase of being human. after all,(quoted from a certain DGM character)people die as long as they remain human)

11) What did you last eat?
potato salad and soba!

12) Played any sports?
many

13) Do you bite your nails ?
no...

14) When was your last physical fight?
i kick anyone if i hate them or am pissed off by them so it was just yesterday

15) Do you have an attitude?
it depends who i'm with

16) Do you like someone?
yeah

17) What is your real name?
labbido komui! kanda, my god you do not know how much i LOVE komui's stupidity nah...my name's Jialin and i know i wasn't supposed to say whoae stupidity i love to bits.

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
no...

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
yes.

21) Do you miss someone?
no

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
twirl ...

23) Do you tan a lot?
i was born tanned

24) Have any pets?
none suvived . . .

25) How exactly are you feeling?
empty

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
yeah

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
. . .i'm underage! and if anyone went to the same cubicle as me, in five seconds, one of us would be out.

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
no ex-es!

29) Are you scared of spiders?
yes...that's why clement always purposely points somewhere and goes "spider!" lol...i can't decide if he's nice or not...

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
no.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
yes...becoming friends with those people i was raving and ranting about

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
sleep

33) Do you want to have kids?
hell no.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
don't think so...oh...when i was young,my father lorh...

35) Do you type fast?
no....

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
none

37) Want any more?
no

38) Can you spell well?
mebbe...

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
no...it's all over already. when you start missing them, it'll be painful.

40) What are you craving right now?
nothing

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
no...

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
yes...

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
no...haha

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
maybe

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
yes...

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
dunno

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
me

50) What should you be doing ?
breathing

51) What’s irritating you right now?
the quiz

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
yes therefore there is now a barrier between others and myself...it may not be visible but it's definitely there.

53) Does somebody love you?
i don't know

54) What is your favorite colour ?
black,green,blue

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
when i was tons younger

57) Do you have trust issues?
yes...my family knows i live by the "trust no one" policy

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
no.

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
no ex-es...(:i rock!

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
no one sees me cry

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
no

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forget(but it resurfaces all too soon like somewhere, subconsciously it had been there all the time and it hurts like errrrrrr......)

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
no...

67) What was your child hood nickname?
too many...until now,i'm still getting them(most current one: labbido)

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
i don't think so

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
i'm not that scientific but to a certain extent,yeah

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
breathe

73) What is bothering you?
myself

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
yeah

75) Do you play the Wii?
it rocks my socks

76) Are you listening to music right now?
result-tamaki nami

77) Do you like Chinese food?
depends on my mood

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
yes...they're running numbers!

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
no

80) Is cheating ever okay?
i did that while playing uno...

81) Are you mean?
i'm biased

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
no...(groans...)

84) Do you believe in true love?
love is a game

88) Do you like the outside?
depends on where.

89) Are you currently bored?
not really...

90) Do you wanna get married
no.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
that sucks...it makes me feel inferior...

92) Are you hungry?
no

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
. . .hell no(i'm proud to say that!)

94) What makes you happy?
happy? there is no "happy"

95) Would you change your name?
no...i mean it's my name and that's all. my name doesn't define me. i define myself.

96) Ever been to Alaska?
i want to go but my parents say no

98) Do you watch the news?
i don't watch tv

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
scorpio

100) Do you like Subway?
yesh

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
it's been a long time...so i wonder but it'll be weird

103) Do you talk like your friends?
???

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
duh...

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
every one of them

107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
erm...my brother?

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
kinda

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
My blog and whorever read it(that's called one-sided conversation!)

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
Honoo No Tobira-Fictionjunction Yuuka

111) Can you count to one milllion?
Never tried