“life will be better in spring”

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Today, went to school and rotted again...Thank God we'll be doing stuff next week! Okies anyway, about today, we spent half the day playing UNO then i kept looking at other people's cards but you can't blame me cuz they were holding it like "..." it was so obvious and therefore no one dared to sit next to me...mwahahahaha...it reminds me of that time we were playing citadels and i kept killing gabriel cuz i was cheating...(in a way...i like cheating at cards but gabriel still doesn't know how I found out what card he got...samuel all of them also still dunno...!cuz of that i own them all in the game and they wanted to kill me)then everybody sabo ryan until he had to draw 18 cards...Mr Ling was ryan no. 2 and yen tung was no. 3...we played until mrs tan came in and then she scolded us for being like a "gambling den" so we had to stop and copy down answers for maths...so cuz ryan couldn't see from his seat he sat at my table and kept singing making me damned pissed i decided to learn from kanda and meditate to keep out the noise from the annoying ryan so he started saying that i was very lucky to hear him singing and i was like dots. that led to him showing me a message on chloe which almost made me puke cuz she said she was lucky to hear his singing, he is cute and good looking. i kinda agreed with the nice attitude part cuz he can be nice so i didn't dispute that part but then he continued singing and soon wen siang came to use his back as a table. ryan was still singing stoopid stuff and i was tired so i went to put my head on the table then wen siang went "see, your singing so horrible make her cry already" it was so dotty i disn't reply then he went on to saying "maybe she die already" making ryan go "don't scare me leh" so doing him a favour, i looked up and laughed so ryan went "see?somemore still laughing"i really wanted to kill him cuz his singing really sucks. then he noticed the scribbles chelsea and i made on my pencil case yesterday and cuz it was written in romanji,he read it until like shyt liddat then i was laughing until want 2 die liao.oh yes...there was art too...we had to sit in twos so the guys were next to us and they were like doing gay fag stuff, making gloria and i agree that yen tung was influenced by them...then yi voon got quite high so gloria went like "ya horh...her drawing quite nice..." then i replied "ya...the drawing of the bird right?" and then guess what?gloria went to think sick...SHEESH. but today many people used english in the wrong way.
These are the top two.

Tina:on the bed with guys i dunno(smth liddat lah)
yen tung:WTH?!
Tina:but long time never do liao

Gloria:today i want go eat japan
yen tung and me:o.O tmr eat russia,china and india

from here on, do not read unless you want to here me complain a lot...cuz of somethings i'm damn 不爽 so if you're against vulgarities and stuff, don't read. i really need to vent my anger right here, right now(that's why today i kept staring into space...sorry ryan if i scared you)
as i mentioned before,there are some people in this world i cannot stand and it really is true. i just wish you bastards/bitches will go and die. you people aren't even human; you can see a person who is hurt and going to die and just ignore them as if they never existed but you completely enjoy it when they adore you. are you stupid or do you just not know anything. i know i loved one of you but that was history. i used to cry for you, smile for you when deep down in my heart i think we both knew our friendship wouldn't get any further, that it would soon be completely destroyed. maybe that was what you were trying to do but i'm sorry, you aren't the only one i have, you never were. that's why i could survive even though you left. you hate cockroaches don't you? well, open your eyes and look around, i'm one of them; i'll never be killed by people like you. you do know who's been keeping me sane don't you? if you lay just one finger on that person, i don't give a shit about you any more and i'll make sure i bring you down, where you and your friends can feel how it's like to be alone, to be blinded from the world but i won't even let you have a single person to lean on. to remember who i am...you told me that before but was i really like one of you? I don't want to be. i hate all of you like poison and i regret ever thinking you people would make good friends. I'm sorry i ever thought so and i think you should just stay out of my life for like forever.
Done with my ranting at last it wasn't meant to be emo and i don't think it sounds emo but i will kindly not expose those people because they at least did let me crawl back up and not keep trampling on me. but there are those i love and will love you forever unless you do what they did to me...