“life will be better in spring”

March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 January 2011 March 2011


A song titled black tears. It somehow matches my feelings, matches my dreams but yet, it doesn't quite. I wonder what I've been thinking all this time.

Wishing tonight that tomorrow will never come
Countless dreams and loves and losses,
I cry and cry and cry
as though beaten down by rain

Don't display me, not like this
I need something to keep on living
If I can't even believe in myself, what can I believe in?
The answer is so close I can't even see it

Shedding black tears
I am nothing. Filled with sorrow,
Unable to say a word
The pain is welling up inside me, and
I can't bear this alone

I cried in the middle of the night, drew my face that isn't me,
That hides my weaknesses. I'm going to stop smiling...

Don't display me. Is the hardest thing in the whole world
To keep on living?
If it comes from you, then it's all right that it's intangible
I don't want things that can be broken anymore

Shedding black tears, crying out
Tomorrow comes with a face that I don't know
Struck with this same pain again
If I have to continue like this, every day,
Then I want to disappear forever, far away
I know it's selfish, but...

Shedding black tears
I am nothing. Filled with sorrow,
Unable to say a word
The pain is welling up inside me, and
I can't bear this alone

Shedding black tears, crying out
Tomorrow comes with a face that I don't know
Struck with this same pain again
If I have to continue like this, every day,
Then I want to disappear forever, far away
I know that it's selfish, but...