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Wednesday, March 31, 2010 || 9:30 PM



Lots of things happened today, kind of. The day passed pretty damn fast, unfortunately and in no time, it was dance. D: Not that I dread dance...But oh well, I've been damn tired recently .____.

Anyways, I was damn off form and felt damn pathetic. Wait, I AM pathetic. :DDDDDDDD Anyways, I forgot what we did. X: Except Lu Cheng was damn epic. Hahahaha...thanks so much for making me laugh on such a screwed day. :D

Hahaha...GOOD LUCK TO WEI KIT FOR TOMORROW. X: hehehehe...good luck to Janitor and I too. 8D

Get over it. D:
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 || 6:23 PM



I know I suck. Hahahahaha... XD Letting go of some things is just so hard .____. Nevermind, I'll get over it. XD Just have to remind myself that I'll be fine and I have enough le. XD Hahaha...but right after that I guess it was kind of obvious I felt weird cuz even Chelsea knew something was wrong. O: Hey people, I'll be fine. I'll just smile through all the pain no matter what. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Hey, thanks for being there when I needed someone. :D You're awesome, face it. :DDDDDDD And yeah, sometimes it was really fun...Hahaha...but all good things come to an end I guess. 8D Really, thank you. :DDDDDDD Hehehehe...and who knew letting go would be so hard? :DDDDDDDD Must not emo horh you, must ALWAYS smile, like me. :)

Monday, March 29, 2010 || 8:08 PM





Today was...the same as usual. XD But the solar cooker ours was epic fail...== Charmaine's group temperature go up until 95 degrees celsius leh. X: The plasticine even melted. O: Oh, and psps, Ning and I are doing this epic project; our idea of fun. XD


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Sunday, March 28, 2010 || 10:46 PM


Someone told me "Dreams will always be the opposites from reality." I guess, this is where our story ends, cuz, it was all just a fucked up dream I wished would come true.

HI. Today sucked, unfortunately. I'll leave it at that. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Too lazy to explain any further. Whee! At least Arashi's Troublemaker is 2nd on the Japanese charts. 8D

Saturday, March 27, 2010 || 8:44 PM



1. What Color Is Your Toothbrush
I think it's blue. :DDDDDDDD

2. Name One Person That Made You Smile Today
No one. D:

3, What were you doing at 8 AM?
Sleepingggggggggggggg... :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
Emo-ing. D:

5. What is your favorite candy?
O.o dunno leh.

7. What's the last thing you said out loud?
Nothing. ._.

8. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Chocolate chip. :D

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water, I think.

10. What is the longest you have gone without sleeping?
3 days. Damn own right. 8D

11. Have you ever made a promise you'd die to keep?
Kinda. Like my promise to XN today. :DDDDDd Must smile horh. D:

13. The last sporting event you watched?
O.o I dunno. X:

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
I DON'T LIKE POPCORN ALTOGETHER. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

15. Who is the last person you sent a message to on Facebook?
Erm. I don't send messages. o.o

16. Ever go camping?
Pulau Semakau was damn fun TTM.

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
Nope. Lol. WHO CARES?!

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
Yesh. :D

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
Yep. XD

22. What did your last text message say?
From Yen : ":D"

24. Where is your dad?
Overseas. :DDDDDDDDDD

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
The wardrobe. O:

26. What color is your watch?
I don't have a watch.

27. I think this one is empty...
O.o

28. What did you do yesterday?
School-ed. D;

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Depends. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

30. What is your favorite number?
9. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
Dunno. LOl.

32. Any plans today?
Sleep later? I dunno.

34. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Nothing. I am happy. :DDDDDDDDDDd

35. Last song listened to?
Firefly - Arashi

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
Noooooooooooooooooooo... T.T

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
The pair of sandals the stupid celery killed...==

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
Nope. I'm content with my life. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

40. Is anyone jealous of you?
Dunno. :D But I have nothing to be jealous about so I guess not. XD

41. Do you love anyone?
Too many people. XD

43. What do you usually do during the day?
Either schooling or sleeping. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
No. Hell, no. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
HI!!!!!!! is more love-d. :DDDDDDDDD

46. Meaning of life?
Dunno. X:

47. Do you like cats?
HELL NO.

48. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
...what's that? O.o

49. How did you get your worst scar?
Feel off the hill...==

50. Last big talk?
Wots that...==

51. Last CD played?
Time by Arashi

52. Last bubble bath?
No bathtub. :D I don't like.

54. Last meal?
Can't remember. X:

55. Have you ever dated someone twice?
Dunno. ;D

56. Gone on a date?
...== you think?!

57. Have you ever fallen in love?
Yeah with many many people. XD

58. Have you ever lost someone?
Yeah. D;

59. Have you ever slept until 1PM?
No. LOl. I want to!

60. Have you met a famous person?
Yesh. :DDDDDDDDD

61. Do you have at least 2 people you can tell pretty much anything to?
No.

62. List three favorite colors/shades:
White, black, erm...blue/green bah

63. Laughed until you cried?
Not really.

64. Went behind your parents back?
O.o I always walk behind them de.

66. Opinion on gay marriage?
Dunno.

67. Lowering the drinking age?
Everyone, almost is doing underage drinking le...==

69. Who are the best huggers that you know?
Shini, Felicia and Kelly.

70. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope. :DDDDDD

71. Is there something you want to tell someone?
Kinda ._.

73. Would you kiss any of your facebook friends?
I don't think so...==

74. How Many Kids Do You Want To Have?
NONE. Irritating things kids are.

75. Do you want to change your name?
Dunno. LOl.

76. Last time you saw your father?
Dunno. X:

78. How old are you?
Legally 13. Illegally 14. :DDDDDDDDDDD

79. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I wasn't asleep yet. I was trying to. D:

80. What is your favorite thing in your room?
Dunno. LOl.

|| 4:46 PM



Hi. :D Spent the day spamming Jpop and Kpop and leaving my homework all alone. D: Blah. Ahahahahaha... Kara's dances are still...damn nice. D: Ahahaha...All the covers I see done by others just cannot compare. D: Michelle is the second best at their dances. XD Blah. The dance for Shock by Beast are nice too. :DDDDDD Even though it's bboy. Ehehehe...Kpop is getting into my head. D: I blame Chelsea, Michelle and Leila. D< Nevermind. :DDDDDDD Don't worry Arashi, you're still the most loved. ;DDDDDDDDD Though all their songs the beginnings are...a bit...gay...== OH WELL. :D Arashi are loved. :DDDDDDDDD

Friday, March 26, 2010 || 9:00 PM

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Hey peeps. :D I have never been happier in my life before. 8D Mebbe have lah , LOl. But then orh, I. Got. Arashi's. Album. Ahahaha...the album Time. With Nino's solo, Niji in it. 8D Thanks to my nice nice aunt. XD

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! OMG. It's been so long since I've been so high. XD

Okay, anyways, today, PE was sian-ed. And I got bullied by Michelle and Yen Tung. D: Then tio bully until I was lying down on the floor of the court some more...== BLAH. And Mr Mun praised us! Heehee....he said our class girls were the only ones in our level who could organise ourselves. XD

Next was...erm. Oh ya, CEP. Cai lao shi are nice. 8D And Toon and I decided to call Yen Tung "Cai Yen Tung" in future. 8D And cuz we were doing translation, Cai lao shi let us see some failure translations and it was damn epic. 8D I think I'm gonna enjoy CEP for this term. 8D

Let's skip recess and chem and get to Chinese. 8D AHAHAHAHA...I never hand in SRP but ZM don't care. XD But then she took away Ryan and Wen Siang's bags. D: But then they damn epic, go steal their cca stuffs from their bags when XM not watching. XD!

Lunch that time, Toon, Ning and I wanted to change but then Toon couldn't find her NCC bag...== HAHAHAHA...Then in the end it was in the canteen still...== FAIL, TOONA. Fail. :D

Maths was sian as usual. X: And ICT was epic TTM. Especially the Pantene advertisement. That thing was damn....anti climax. D: But the advertisement was nice. 8D Oh. And who gets the black hole thing?! Explain to me leh. D:

Dance. Was. Slack. Blah. The hand stand was freaky. D: And Lu Cheng has six packs. Like WTFH. Home-d with Yen Tung and the NP people. THEY ARE SUPER EPIC. I like. XD

Oh, and the human are back. 8DDDDDD

Yesterday. :D

Blah. Yesterday was epic, but one of the shittiest days of my life ever. Except for the few things that were super ultra epic. And yesterday I didn't want to go for dance at all. Talk about being extra. D: And our planning was super pass! Heehee. Other than that, I WANT TO CURSE AT THE WIND. Just thinking about it makes me sad again. D: Therefore, I shall shut up now before all kinds of vulgarities come out. D: It's weird that even Arashi fails to erase those damn memories. D;

Thursday, March 25, 2010 || 9:08 PM

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Erm, so ya. Today was epic. I forgot why though. X: I don't really want to remember. And everything seems to be fading from my memory. Ahahaha...i'm also to lazy to post a long post. ._. You looked at me weirdly today and I felt weird. X:

Wednesday, March 24, 2010 || 11:01 PM



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(Ever looked up into the sky and asked why you deserved such a screwed life? It's cuz we screwed up; big time, when we had the chance to make a change in the future.)



|| 8:51 PM

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I dunno anymore. X: I just dunno, don't wanna know. Yes, a very cowardly way of life. Haiz. Oh well. Hahahaha...that's right Chelsea, I'm so damn good at lying and hiding my emotions, I'm not sure of my own feelings anymore. ._. Haiz. Good luck to me. XD

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Tuesday, March 23, 2010 || 2:02 PM



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Ahahahaha...I like a lot of things Kanda said as a kid. O: And Gakuen Alice is the most popular manga. XD AHA. Gakuen alice pwns. :DDDDDDDDDDD Blah. Hahaha...spent so much time at home today rotting, watching anime and reading manga. Quite damn fun if you ask me. XD


(Where are you going...? Are you planning to disappear from my life...once again? - Narumi L. Anjo {Gakuen Alice})



Blah.
|| 11:45 AM

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Oh blah. Sick. And miserable. And the foot....== And holy, I bit my tongue while I was sleeping...== Tsh. Blah. Aiyo. Tsh. Hope I can go to school tomorrow. X:

Notice how everytime after I feel depressed I get sick? I might just die of depression one day, or maybe the insanity of keeping it all to myself and smiling even though inside, I'm breaking.

Monday, March 22, 2010 || 11:27 PM



fearlessprincess: Lovely French macaroons! Seeing light shades of pastel colors is already delightful. I don’t need to take a bite to know it’s delicious. ;)


(It's damn cold here. So cold that it's suffocating and I feel like dying; mentally and physically.)



|| 7:21 PM



Ahahahaha. Sitting next to Brandon in class is epic. 8D And blah. I forgot the epic things that happened today le. X: But I think there were a lot. And I have a feeling I'm gonna screw up all the dances this year. D: YOG, the cultural dunno what and mid autumn...D: And blah. 1.2 km run today. Blah. But I ran it with Celery and Gloria's pants...was...epic TTM. XD And blah, I liked it when we never talked therefore, I shall never talk to you again and pretend I never knew you. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Thanking people at last. XD

Yen Tung : Hahaha...hello. Thanks for making me smile so many many many times. And your "hungry ghost-ness" is damn epic. Thanks for bitching with me when I felt really angry/frustrated/upset. Thanks for listening to me when I felt lonely. Hahahahaha...you've been an awesome friend. I thank God, the earth, the sea, the sky, everything for you. :DDDDDDDDDDDD

Shi Ni : SHINING! Blah. I dunno what to say sia. Kinda. Blah. Thanks for standing by me through so many things, for waiting for me so many times, for missing your buses just so that I won't be so lonely while waiting for my bus. D: I'm so sorry sia. Thanks for those many many hugs. Hahaha... XD You're the most fun toilet partner ever. AHAHAHAHAHA. The "count on me Singapore" thing was damn epic. :DDDDDDD Hahaha...thank you Shi Ni. :D

Tina : Toon! You have the damn pro ability of making every un-wrong thing sound damn wrong and lightening the mood. 8D You're a very jiao fish but oh well, we all love you loads. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD Fun fish. XD Blah. Thanks for...helping me gang Gloria, Yen Tung and Chelsea. And ahahahahahahaha...I know you love the name we gave you : Toona Yagami. Damn nice name, right? Ahahahaha! Thank you for being a friend. :DDDDDDDDD

Chelsea : Hi Chelsea. Thanks for smsing me in class when I'm bored in class. 8D For being there at some of the weirdest times, for encouraging me. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I know we poke fun at your hair a lot but we still appreciate you horh. :DDDDDD And thanks for being almost as crazy over Arashi as me. XDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Gloria : The motherly figure of our clique. XD You always take care of us like a mother would, always let us go to your house. Ahahahahaha...Gloria, thank you. XD Oh, and your lame jokes are just so cold until no one can forget. Ahahahaha...continue being the rainbow you are horh. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Or else the labbid will attack you. XD

Xue Ning : Ahahaha...thanks for joining the same CCA as me or I would have quit dance a long long time ago. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Blah. Thanks for (most of the time) walking to the bus stop with Rachel and I. Hahahaha... XD Blah. Couldn't have done much without you. X: Oh well, not much without the rest of them either. X: So thanks for being in my life. Thank you so much. :D

Rachel : Rachel! Thank o=you for always volunteering to get us our drinks last year. XD Thanks for lending us your TPC in class sometimes. XD Thanks for beung nocturnal with me during camp and doing weird, crazy, epic stuff. :DDDDDDDDDDD Hahaha...the sleeping beauty of our class, horh you? Hahaha...thank you for being in my life Rachel. :D

Felicia : Heyhey! Hahahahahaha...thanks for being so nice to me. X: Blah. Thanks for worrying for me when I was emo-ing. Thanks for just being there. :DDDDDDDDDDD Hahaha...thanks for waking me up when I fall asleep in class. XD Heehee... XD

Kelly : Blah. Call me Orbit some more and I shall kill you. 8D Teehee...ahahahaha...thanks for being an awesome friend. But of course, we all know that you're a lousy, CMI owner. :DDDDDDDDDDDD Teehee...and still haven't show me the treaty yet leh. D< Blah. Thanks for being funny and making me laugh. :DDDDDDDDD

Kai Siang : Somehow, you managed to cheer me up in my emo-est periods. Thank you for finding me a way to destress, for saying that even if I had no more friends, you would still be my friend. :DDDDDDDDDDDD Thank you so much. :D

Suresh : I dunno. You're just awesome to work with. :DDDDDDDDDDD

Brandon : It's just super epic to talk to you. HAHAHAHAHAHA! You and your gradient hair colour. XD! Damn funny lorh. AHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Wei Kit : Hi Wei Kit. :D You're like the sportiest guy in our class and the only one who doesn't blame the girls when we lost in sports related stuff. Thanks. You're much appreciated. :D

Ryan : Erm. Thanks for telling me lotsa stuff. For making me laugh with your super damn epic stupidity, your terrible love for money and chio bus...== Hahaha...thank you. :DDDDDDDD

You Zhuan : Hello senior. :D Thanks for...a lot of stuff (?) For erm...trusting me and blah. Ya lah. :D But your nicknames for me are...not appreciated...==

Sunday, March 21, 2010 || 10:37 PM

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Hi person, I hope you notice that I've got feelings too. D:

|| 2:48 PM



Oh God, we kinda got scammed into joining the green club. ._.
Anyways, it was fun. Full stop. And Mrs Tan is like damn pro in basketball.
Ahhh, and she asked JT which class he was from cuz she thought he was a student. XD
Oh blah, whee! I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT THE FOOT. And it was damn worth it. Hahaha. XD
Gosh. We should do it again some other time cuz it was just so damn fun. XD Thanks to Yen Tung, Rachel, Tina, Chelsea, Xue Ning, Ryan, Wei Kit, Mrs Tan and JT for making it so fun. Whee. Hahahahaha!

Oh blah. Just read Chelsea's blog and decided to thank people since I can't do much due to the ban on me doing sports. Tsh. No sports = no life. D: Tsk. It's gonna be locked cuz erm...like some of the things I wanna thank you all for are like...confidential. XD. Argh. If you like want the passcodes for yours or something then ask me horh. Hehehehehehehe. God, I feel damn evil today. D: Heh. I wanna watch Alice in Wonderland. DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: Mwahahaha! Teeheehee... It are raining. 8D Blah blah blah. I suddenly don't feel like thanking people. X: Ah well. I shall just briefly thank people. 8D so thy shall not lock it.

And oh blah. I was doing random quizzes and got kinda...depressing results. D: One of them was : It would have to take a death to make you cry. You always hold yourself together for the people around you to show that you are not weak in any way. Being the strong person in your group makes them feel comfortable to come and talk to you. Lifes everyday problems are just dust on your shoulder and you have no problem brushing it off. Just know that you don't always have to be the tough person, everyone breaks down some day.

That one was depressing cuz I'm not that strong. D< Alamak. Sadded sia. Cuz so many people sad. D:

Yesterday...
Saturday, March 20, 2010 || 2:36 PM



Oh dear. Yesterday was damn epic TTM. XD! Teehee

Dance :D

Dance was...dance (?). Okay, so Crescent, Mayflower and Chung Cheng came over. Erm, and seriously, yesterday was very slack. Thank God. :DDDDDDDDDD Cuz I didn't get to sleep the previous night due to the ceiling getting overly interesting. ;D Teehee...Okay, LOl. That was NOT the point. Anyways, yeah. We had to do SRW and lian yao a lot today. And I feel paralysed now cuz of that. And the sec 1s are damn imba. D< Ah, nevermind. That just means more training for me. O: Hahahaha...and I do qian fan damn epic. I was like stoning in the startng position for 5 minutes. X: Sorry...and in the end, I could do qian fan but it's really like...weird. XD Nevermind. Just go practice more. ;D and then saw Ye Wen. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is still damn tall. O: And we danced in the rain. I liked it leh. X: It was very very fun. XD We should do it more often. :D Whee. After posting I shall go lian some more. XD Sekali back break. O: Too bad then. :D

The play :D

So after dance, Xue Ning and I went to bath. Release very early that day leh, thank God. :D Then stoned in school waiting for Yen Tung. Then she came! Whee! Her parents are super nice, can? :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Went to her house for dinner and we changed out of our school uniform. :DDDD Then we went to fetch Shining. >< They all like very chio, can? Ahahahaha! But we kinda didn't see Shining when we went to fetch her. X: Oh gosh. Then we headed for Victoria Theatre but there was this huge jam due to the rain. D: Then Yen Tung has these two pillows and I called one of them Kelly cuz it reminded me of that mushroom. The other pillow was some mouse pillow. XD And then, as stated by Yen Tung :

"WWIII = Mouse vs Labbid
And of course, the mouse owned the labbid xD
Kekeke. Wave after wave of attack :DDDDDDDDDDD"

Though of course the part about me being owned was fake TTM. :DDDDDDDDDD And then we reached the place and went to sit down. :DDDDDD And all of them said I cannot shut up one...== So they kept hitting me with the booklet...== But sorry lah! I was like tio hit by laughing gas over the fact that spilled water on the booklet and you people said I drooled...== And we were all glaring at the gong trying to make it go "gong" using psychic powers or something. Whee! It was damn epic TTM.

The play started. D: Sian like cannot make it. So I was hoping Tan Kah Kee would quickly die. 8D And then there were these parts that they looked as if they were doing Malay dance and Chinese dance. And the Malay dance thing reminded all of us of Jian Bin and Brandon Ong. :D Except, as Shining stated, Brandon would have been singing All The Single Ladies instead...== Okay, then I fell asleep so I dunno what happened. X: And Shining was damn epic. She thought the girl was acted by a guy for the most epic reason ever. XD Then the play ended with this short short boy who said "看太阳出来了!" And the sun was like...the wrong colour...==

After the play, we went to stone with Sir Thomas Stamford Raffles. XD And we were all hungry until cannot. D: And cuz I found the ending damn funny, I kept re-acting it then Yen Tung wrote this :

"Then the '太阳出来了' that part damn weird, the labbid was attempting to mimick the person xD
Laugh until cannot. She should go join drama club xD"

Then Shining and Xue Ning said :

"Jialin kept imitating the guy's actions after that saying “太阳出来了!” and it was damn funny HAHA. All of us agreed that if she joins the drama club the whole play will become a damn hilarious one cos of her."

Which just shows I have just found a career in comedy. XD So anyways, went to Mac after that and ended up all of us ate very little. D: Poor fries...I'm sorry. D: After that, we home-ed. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Oh gosh. And apparently, once we were homw, Xue Ning, Shining and I all started using com...== Nocturnal creatures. :DDDDDDDDDD In the end, ended up sleeping at 3 plus. == Hahahaha! Okay bye bye I go lian fan now... XD Psps, no, that smile was not retarded and I am NOT a hamtong...== WTH. I are human. :DDDDDDDD

|| 12:37 AM

lovemidori: Cherry blossom in Korea © My name is gift

I'm not gonna be nice anymore. HAH. Cuz some fucking retards just don't appreciate it. Fuck you, fuck you all very very much. Tsk. Sorry for what I just said. D:

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Thursday, March 18, 2010 || 7:22 PM



I KNOW I'M WRONG AGAIN, okay? Oh well, whatever, I always knew I was anyway. :DDDDD So it's okay bah. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

And I'm convinced I'm like the world's greatest sinner. X: All the bad things just have to happen to me. D< I guess happy things do too, though. XDDDDDDDDD So I shall just be grateful. And tsk, after reading the convo between Joanna and You Zhuan, frankly, I seriously kinda agree that our batch is never noticed no matter how hard we try. Though I admit they shouldn't have been like that. Worse still...senior leh. I guess it's always like that. The harder someone tries, the easier they seem to disappear from everyone's eyes. D:

Anyway, today dance was... I dunno what to say lah. Lol. Discipline run was...sian as usual ._. Then we did warm up and then diao the YOG stuff. And Michelle and Zoe kept laughing at me. D< LOl. No lah. I was being a retard, XDDDDDDDDDD. Then after that we did some weird thing and at first I ended up with Zi Yang. O: Then Nicholas demo with Kelly damn epic. XDDDD Like some erm...themepark ride? And then somehow in the end, I ended up with Jun Zheng, whom I trust more than Zi Yang actually. X: And Di Jin is super funny. XD He asked Xue Ning "You ready? 1,2,3. HWEE!" Which was damn gao xiao. And apparently, Jun Zheng managed to tai me even though I was damn...fail...and I kept laughing sia...== I think it's just my terror of being carried. X: Like last year liddat. The tai ju. Then I always scared until cannot. Then somemore they thought I cry...== AH. BLAH. That's not the point. Anyway, after that, apparently, I became cold again and my fever shot up again sia. X: But cuz laoshi wanted to continue the YOG thing, I couldn't be bothered with sitting out. Teehee. Then after lunch supposed to shui jiao but I was thinking about tons of other stuffs instead. X: After that, YOG again, till the end of cca. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Tomorrow lotsa other schools are coming. X: YAY! Can see Ye Wen again. XDDDDDDDDDDDD Haha...so long never see her le. D:

Off to learn Arashi's dance for Crazy Moon. I think it's a retarded name but too bad I love Arashi. And some of their dances damn nice. 8DDDDDDDDDD Oh dear God...someone teach me the dance leh. I can't even keep up with the first 2 seconds of it. D: I know I'm an epic fail...still, just teach me the dance. D: I'll love you for life. :D Nevermind. No time learn le. And blah. I GET THE FIRST 2 SECONDS LE! XD!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010 || 8:20 PM



Song : Unwanted
Singer : Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

(Chorus)
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
That's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes, broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reason why (why)
You've been rejected (you've been rejected)
And now you can't find
What you left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

(Chorus)
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
That's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside

Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place (yeah!)

(Chorus)
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
That's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside (oh, oh)
She's lost inside, lost inside (oh, oh, yeah)

Haiz. Damn true sia. D: And I think I'm gonna end up like the girl in Brick by Boring Brick. You know what? Fuck. :D That girl was damn screwed lah. :/ Too bad, I guess. Cuz I'm gonna end up just like her, I'm sure. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

|| 2:15 PM



Screw you. D<

I'm staring at a broken door, there's nothing left here anymore.

It's really cold here.
I'm shivering.
But the coldness comes from the heart.
It's an undescribable feeling.
I feel really cold.
Can't anyone be here for me?


She needed someone to show her,
Who she could be.
And she tried to survive,
Wearing her heart on her sleeve.
And she tried to survive,
Living her life on her own,
Always afraid of the throne.
She was scared, unprepared
Lost in the dark.
Falling Apart.
You had your dreams, I had mine.
You had your fears, I was fine.
Show me what I couldn't find,
When two different worlds collide.

WEIRD.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 || 10:18 PM


(via lindsay-quit-lollygagging)
THAT IS DAMN TRUE.


( ˙ʇɹɐd ɹǝıddɐɥ ǝɥʇ)



( ˙ʇɹɐd ɹǝppɐs ǝɥʇ)



Brick by Boring Brick
|| 9:26 PM



ROFLMAO to the picture above. Brick by Boring Brick is awesome. :DDDDDDDDDD I like. XD And the music video reminds me of Alice in Wonderland. With a sad ending. XDDDDDDD But a bit ke lian the girl. X: First verse and the bridge are damn true. X: Teehee... XD. The Only Exception by Paramore is awesome too. 8D

Song : Brick by Boring Brick
Singer : Paramore

{Verse 1}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ She lives in a fairy tale
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Somewhere too far for us to find
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Forgotten the taste and smell
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Of a world that she's left behind
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ It's all about the exposure, the lens, I told her
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ The angles are all wrong now
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ She's ripping wings off of butterflies

{Pre-Chorus}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Keep your feet on the ground
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ When your head's in the clouds

{Chorus}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Well go get your shovel
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And we'll dig a deep hole
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ To bury the castle, bury the castle
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Go get your shovel
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And we'll dig a deep hole
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ To bury the castle, bury the castle

Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da

{Verse 2}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ So one day, he found her crying
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Coiled up on the dirty ground
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Her prince finally came to save her
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And the rest you can figure out
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ But it was a trick
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And the clock struck twelve, well make sure
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ To build your house brick by boring brick
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Or the wolf's gonna blow it down

{Pre-Chorus}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Keep your feet on the ground...
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ When your head's in the clouds...

{Chorus}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Well go get your shovel
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And we'll dig a deep hole
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ To bury the castle, bury the castle
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Go get your shovel
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And we'll dig a deep hole
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ We'll bury the castle, bury the castle

{Bridge}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Well you built up a world of magic
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Because your real life is tragic
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Yeah you built up a world of magic...

­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ If it's not real
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ You can not hold it in your hands
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ You can't feel it with your heart
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And I won't believe it
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ But if it's true
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ You can see it with your eyes
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Oh, even in the dark
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And that's where I want to be, yeah!

{Chorus}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Go get your shovel
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And we'll dig a deep hole
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ To bury the castle, bury the castle
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Go get your shovel
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ And we'll dig a deep hole
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ To bury the castle, bury the castle

{Outro}
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Ba-da ba ba ba-da ba ba
[X3]
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da
­­­­ ­­­ ­­ ­­­ Ba-da ba ba ba ba-ba ba ba

|| 9:06 PM

(via likeneelyohara)
Trust is just like a mirror; you can always fix it but you can still see the crack in that motherfucker's reflection.

HI. BYE. ...I'm just bored out of my mind lah...== nothing to do. X:

|| 10:42 AM




You're always standing on the same street corner.
What are you looking for? \
Don't you understand the road you're walking on?

Being born onto this planet;
I'll give you courage so you won't regret anymore.

Do your best,
Don't lose.
Today is here for tomorrow.
Stand up,
Without being afraid;
I'm here for you.

I've felt a lot of frustrating feelings.
I can never do anything, my tears overflow.

My heart can go through any darkness.
I promise,
I won't look down,
I won't spare any efforts.

I'll work hard for there's no shortcut.
Today is here for tomorrow.
I'll do my best.
I'll reach out my hand.
Cuz I know you are here for me.

Yesterday and today, I run to the video shop.
Changing my shoes,
having my heart jarred. t
The passing time is in my hand.
Believing in someone,
walking and noisily conversing about someone's rumor.
I can only do this.
When will our map of this maze be found?

Being born in this planet,
I'll give you courage so you won't regret it anymore.

Do your best.
Don't lose.
Today is here for tomorrow.
Stand up,
Without being afraid.
I'm here for you.

I'll work hard for there's no shortcut.
Today is here for tomorrow.
I'll do my best.
I'll reach out my hand.
Cuz I know you'll catch me when I fall.

|| 10:07 AM




I like life.



(Too bad it's screwed.)


Yen Tung, there's no point in you asking for the code. Cuz you know what happened le. D<

Monday, March 15, 2010 || 11:32 PM

(via likeneelyohara)

I can’t just put up with it.
I have to say what I want to say.
On the way home, at the bus stop at dusk,
I say bye bye to your depressed-looking back.

The world I dream of
Has no fighting,

Every day is a peaceful day.
But in reality, each day is a trap.
And sometimes I find it tough, those rolling days.

It’s okay to fall, right?
When you do,

I’ll laugh for you.
I got on the bus, and from inside,
I could see you smile a little.

In the sweet love in dramas,
The lovers search for a hiding place.
But in reality, there are days when we can’t even see each other
Even when I stumble, I have faith, in those rolling days

I want to smile as much as possible
But you do what you have to do to protect something, right?
Surely lies don’t mean anything.

The world I dream of,
Has no fighting, everyday is peaceful.
Yeah,
sometimes these rolling days may be tough,
But fight on even if you stumble.



HI. ~
|| 10:47 PM

annaszczekutowicz:  theblankpage:  yougottalivetoparty:  pigtailsbowsxsandos:(via papertissue)
1)
Flying through the painful night,
the world sparkles.
Keep going till tomorrow.

A shape similar to the sky,
fades in my heart.
I made a wish,
but the stars hide away,
all the lights disappearing.
Fate is sudden, it wanders and destroys.
I'm afraid during these sleepless night...
even in my dreams,
you're not there.

It will never change...
no matter the time,
there will always be two tomorrows.

Flying through the painful night,
the world sparkles.
Once again I arrive at you.
Unchangable emotions beat in my heart.
I believe in a different dream now.

Even though my heart allows it,
I can't exchange the dream.
At that point,
I even lost sight of kindness,
I hurt others.
Fortune is always built on fate.
I take it all in, reality, seperation...
but the answer I can't find.

When I remember you,
a smile forms,
which gives me courage.

Don't abandon your dream.
You made me promise that to you.
You protect me wherever you are.
I order not to change,
I need a changed strength.
I order to be with you,
I have to know loneliness.

2)
My hands freeze in the icy wind,
and I've got no place to go.

I put my hands in my pocket,
my heart is frozen,
my tears,
have yet to be healed.

As I look at the stars on my own,
I see them twinkle
and your star is sparkling.

You are my shining star forever and ever,
illuminating me with all your love.
You are my shining star,
because I won't forget
all the days I spent with you...

If I'm treated badly,
I wont show any tears,
and try to persevere.

I don't want any cold rain today
because I need to see your star again.

You are my shining star forever and ever.
Though when something happens,
I still feel alone
You are my shining star.
I softly tremble during the seasons when you're here.

You're my shining star
Everytime I look at the twinkling star,
I make that wish that I won't be alone.

You are my shining star forever and ever,
illuminating me with all your love.
You are my shining star,
because I wont forget
all the days I spent with you...

random.
|| 9:32 PM


1)
While I softly lift my hands up towards the clear sky,
the painful feeling inside of me melts away.
Little by little, time will envelop me,
so I rehearse, in order to master that voice.

On the way back, I see you staring at the sky.
You smiled suddenly, but sadder than normal.
I could see your back on the other side of the sunset,
searching for true warmth.

No matter how I look at you,
My heart always becomes a wind that follows you,
Opening the door to you.

While I softly lift my hands up towards the clear sky,
the painful feeling inside of me melts away.
Little by little, time will envelop me,
so I rehearse, in order to master that voice.

Were you lying with an empty heart,
were you serious, when you said goodbye to me?
If you remember our promise, even now,
I''ll catch your hidden tears with my hands.

Because its not possible to be perfect.
I joined together with the world,
and found my voice.

No matter where you go, on the other side of this sky,
I will know, that you're there.
The southern wind taught me that one day,
a new beginning would come around.

2)
The light from the pure sunrise
is now reaching within my heart.
I take a leap and fly
towards a cloudless sky, flying away.

If somewhere in my heart there are
words I could reach to,
I would grab hold of them,
and feel the shape of the dream.
When I block out the noisy sounds of the city ,
I feel like I'd rather be anywhere else.
My dried up eyes, I can't even seem to dampen them.

The gold color of the spreading sunrise
make me yearn for the journey, so I spread my wings.

The light from the pure sunrise
is now reaching within my heart.
Trying again without fearing weakness,
Without being distracted,
I bathe in the light of the sunrise that illuminates the world.
I take a leap and fly
towards a cloudless sky, flying away.

As I awaken, I embrace the thing
that looks the soul I was searching for.
If I could just keep on dream from slipping away,
I would have no reason to be scared anymore.
As I face an unknown tomorrow,
I find a brand new future that is about to begin.

The gold color of the spreading sunrise
pushes my back so I can fly, so I spread my wings.

The light from the pure sunrise
is now slipping through, shining brightly.
A trivial chance for the me that I'm proud of.
The sun is still shining high,
mesmerizing me to the point where I almost stop breathing.
I keep flying towards tomorrow,
towards the sky that doesn't tremble, flying away.

Right now the sunrise is unstoppable.
Its light spreading from the horizon
crossing a thousand miles, allowing me to see the truth.


The light from the pure sunrise
is now reaching within my heart.
Trying again without fearing weakness,
Without being distracted,
I bathe in the light of the sunrise that illuminates the world.
I take a leap and fly
towards a cloudless sky, flying away.

3)
Before dawn, I saw your dream.
Now, I'm certain its Reality.
Thinking of a place I didn't choose,
an unchangable you...
Its my final memory.

On the blue horizon,
a small bird suddenly drops.
The sky, the sea,
they don't matter.
The promise we made
has turned into pain.
I hold onto my heart,
standing underneath a different sky.

Now I can't stop .
I never intended to hurt you,
that day, all I wanted was to tell you.

Before twilight, the wind stopped for a moment,
hiding the eternity of that day.
One day, can you tell me all about your
new scars, in that familiar voice?

Before dawn, I saw your dream.
Now I'm certain its reality.
Thinking of a place I didn't choose,
I can't stop protecting myself...
Its my final memory.

When we had let go,
a brilliant rainbow hung in the sky.
I could see the future fading,
because the memory came too close.

Please don't you stop.
Don't give up on your dream.
There's no reason we couldn't meet again.

When we split, I understood why we met.
Now I feel my destiny.
In my mouth, the sadness turned into a song,
An eternal melody.

Before twilight, the wind stopped for a moment,
hiding the eternity of that day.
One day, can you tell me all about your
new scars, in that familiar voice?
Before dawn, I saw your dream.
Now I'm certain its Reality.
Thinking of a place I didn't choose,
an unchangable you...
It's my eternal memory.

Thanks. :D
|| 8:33 PM

(via idareyoutoclickthis)

HI. Heyyyy...a great big thank you to those who convinced me that there were people out there who cared, that I still had friends and that I still mattered to at least one person. XD Thanks for being my friend. And thanks to Yen Tung for telling me that I should learn from her. :D Hahahahahaha... THANK YOU ALL! Especially to Kai Siang. I dunno why, but those few tiny words you said made me notice it was worth the fight. :D Thanks for finding me a way to destress. Thanks for telling me that there is always a positive side to life. I think you just revived the person I used to be last year. XD! Thanks. Thanks a lot. YOU'RE AWESOME. :D

|| 7:21 PM

armiannelee: pibee: (via ache)  _____________________________________ “Why live for tomorrow and not be enjoying today?” -Anonymous
It's a shame we all become fragile, broken things.

Tsk. Haha...I'm gonna die soon I think. XD Already coughing out blood sia. As in seriously. X:

I don't understand was my favorite phrase.
I went out all by myself, and now,
But hold on.., you see this smile surface?
Its because I am free to choose my own path.

Hiding the decorations,
Saying the silent words,
Crying over the happy things,
I think I'm a bit too used to all this pretending.

The seasons keep changing, etching into time.
One second can be different to the everyday life
Its better not to pretend to be someone else.
Cuz I seem to be just myself.
Over and over, little by little,
I begin to understand, that this is not enough.
Meeting you, and leaving you,
I know for sure that, all of that
Was done by me.

This hurts, someone mutters,
Because too much is needed to satisfy them.

Losing the things I choose,
Letting go of what I caught,
Erasing the things I drew,
I search for the voice I hear in the distance.

The seasons keep changing, etching into time.
In order to handle it, it musn't be done.
The color fades as a result to my passion.
I keep on going on this road.
Everything starts from here,
Not from tomorrow, not now.
This moment,
Painful things, sad things, everything...
Its just my own story,
So I'll keep on sketching it.



|| 4:47 PM

littlefloatingclouds: (via papertissue)

I feel so empty. And I can literally feel my heart aching. D: But I know it sounds ridiculous but I think it's true. DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

"Its the start of the year.
You're waiting for the first day of school.
When you get to school you wait for lessons to end.
When lessons end you wait for the bus to take you home.
When you get home you wait for dinner.
You do your homework, then you wait for yourself to fall asleep.
Then you wait for the next day of school.
You wait for CA1.
You wait for the results.
Then you wait for the march holidays.
When the holidays begin you wait for the holidays term 2.
Then you wait for SA1.
Then you wait for the results.
Then you wait for June holidays.
When the holidays begin you wait for term 3.
Then you wait for CA2.
Then you wait for the results.
You wait for term 4.
You wait for SA2.
Then you wait for the results again.
When the results are out you wait for the year end holidays.
When the year ends you wait for the next.
You wait for yourself to graduate.
You wait for yourself to grduate from high school.
You wait until you studiead as much as you can.
Then you look for a job.
You start job.
You wait for the day to end.
You wait for your bonus.
You wait...and wait...and wait...until the day you die.

And you think it ends there, eh?

WRONG.

You die...then you either spend eternity in heaven,
or you go to hell,
where you either spend eternity there in torture,
or you ressuruct...and go through life again."
-Bi Ying

Sad, TTM. That's life. Life's sad. Life's screwed. We all are screwed. Oh well.

|| 10:37 AM

infinitus: (via fuckyeahcyanideandhappiness)

AT THE LIBRARY. XD! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Tsktsk. Saw Tissue man ... XD WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. O.o and Hao Ting.

Beautiful days
Sunday, March 14, 2010 || 11:55 PM



Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mum was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up.

I miss those days. D:

LOCKED. :D
|| 2:57 PM

“With a heart so weak, maybe love was just never meant for me.” - Sam Salutillo | Photo

So my blog is locked. I guess I can say anything I need to or want to say now. :D Oh well, about school. I GUESS I'M GONNA BECOME A HIGH SCHOOL DROPOUT. D: I don't see the point of fighting anymore. It's just not worth it. :D So bye bye 209, bye bye NHDS. And God knows, this may be my last blog post for a super long time. Haha...nice one Yen, kick her. XD. Bye for now! :D

You say I never tell you anything. But when I do, you say I'm talking back, blaming others, disrespecting you. D< Make up your mind will you? It'll make the world a better place, trust me. :D

Forgiving and Forgetting.
|| 1:12 PM

“I like dead end signs. I think they’re kind.  They at least have the decency to let you know you’re going nowhere.” - Bugs Bunny | Photo

Tsk. Officially pissed by you. D< You're so full of crap and yourself. I can forgive and forgive and forgive but why won't you change just...a bit? I know I can never be as good as her, but can't you see that I'm trying? So very very hard. I'm pissed by you. Tsk. Stop bothering me over stuff that doesn't concern me at all. Stop being the idiot you are. Since I'm always not good enough, why can't you do the things that I can? Until you can, can you please please just make life easier for me just a tiny teeny weeny bit? It would be appreciated, a lot. :D And tsk. The morning was fun sending retarded smses to Yen Tung about saints, laksa labbid, the evil mom lady etc. :D Teehee...

|| 9:54 AM

:(

Tsk. Haiz. Still sad, still bored. :D Okayokay. I'm becoming more and more no life everyday. I know. Haiz. SO FRIDAY HOW?! It's like so confusing sia...== And Monday just need to bring TPC is it? Cuz we doing game leh. O: Soso how? Yen, if you read this can sms me the plans on Monday cuz I'm still super duper confused. X: Sorry... D:

Shining's quiz. :D
Saturday, March 13, 2010 || 11:47 PM

(by flairey)

Koped from Shining. And, you'll be amazed by how true the above quote is. D;

Are you crushing or taken right now?
God knows. Yen Tung knows. I know. :D

Few close friends or many acquaintances?
Few close friends.

What are you wearing right now?
Shorts and a random shirt. :D

Are you talking to someone while doing this?
No. D:

How clean is your room?
0% clean.

What are you excited for?
I suspect Monday and Friday are gonna be fun. :D

What is your current mood?
Neutral.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Black.

Are you happy right now?
Not really.

What were you doing at 11:00 last night?
I think I was blogging. O.o

What are you doing tonight?
Tumblr. :D

Last thing you bought?
Food. :D

How much money do you have on you?
Dunno. X:

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Dunno.

Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
Myself. <3

Have you ever taken anyone/anything for granted?
Many many many gazillions of people. X: Imma sorry. X:

Do you remember who you liked in grade seven?
Not really.

What is wrong with you right now?
Sad, depressed, bored etc.

Have you ever faked sick?
Nah. I'm nice. :D

Do you get along with your family?
Not really.

Who makes you laugh?
My friends. XD!

In the past week have you gotten sick?
Eh? As in fallen sick?

Last bed you slept in that is not yours?
Erm...erm...I dunno leh. O.o

Do you make your bed daily?
Forced to. Don't see the point though...==

What was the last thing you ate?
Dinner.

Do you have friends you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
One or two.

Do you get overly emotional about small things?
In comparison to what?

Have you changed at all in the past three months?
I think so. X:

Is anyone mad at you right now?
I think many many people are. D:

Is life getting better or worse?
I wonder.

Plans for tomorrow?
Homework. D:

Are you a heavy sleeper?
Not really.

Do you like the town you are living in?
I guess...

If a bear attacked you, would you know how to protect yourself?
Not really.

If someone told you, "lets go to a party and get drunk". What do you say?
Eh?

Look at your nails, do they need to be cut?
NO. Just cut them. :D

When was the last time you saw your father?
God knows how long ago.

Ever really cried your heart out?
D: yeah.

Have you smoked a cigarette today?
Eeyerh. I don't smoke...

So what do you want for your birthday?
Nothing. :D

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
9 hours

Did you go to sleep smiling last night?
No. o.o

Can you cross your eyes?
Yesh. X.X

Would you rather be able to jump into love, or out of love?
Out.

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
Unfortunately...==

Ever tasted your own tears?
Yeah.

What do you wear to bed?
Heh. Clothes. :D

Last furry thing you touched?
O.o I dunno leh.

Does it bother you when someone hides things from you?
It used to. Now, I'm used to it. :D

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person.

Is it bad to be a forgiving person?
Yes. But forgive all the same. :D

For people that don't know you what do they think your age usually is?
I dunno. LOl.

Whats the first thing you wash while in the shower?
Hair.

How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
I have no idea.

Do you remember what the last picture you took was of?
The cards. XD

What color was the last pill you took?
Don't remember.

Is it hard to tell someone you like them?
Duh.

Favorite day of the week?
Friday. :D

Would you ever get a tattoo?
No. I are scared of pain. :D

Do you like waking up to new texts in the morning?
Yesh... XD

What are your plans for your next birthday?
Live life normally. Eat, drink, breathe.

Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Shining.

Is anyone protective over you?
Not really.

Would you rather get high or have sex?
Get high.

Was your last incoming call from the opposite sex?
Nope. :D

Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?
Yes. I shall forgive anyone as many times as they have hurt me. :D Though it hurts to know they won't change. D:

What do you think of Beginnings?
What the hell is that?

What do you think of Long distance relationships?
It'll never work.

Who was the last person you talked to?
My mom. D<

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
I guess.

How many people do you fully trust?
No one. D:

Was it a boy or a girl to text/reply you first today?
Girl.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
I dunno. X:

Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers?
I dunno.

Will you be in a relationship next month?
No.

Are you faster at text messaging or typing on the computer?
Phone. :D

Do you have unlimited texting?
Yesh. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Are you a nice person?
No. That's why people hate me, right?

Do you tell someone when they upset you?
Never. X:

What are you doing after this?
Sleep.

How do you feel about teenage pregnancy?
._. No feelings. Just make sure it never happens to me.

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
I don't really care.

How's life?
I dunno.

And your name is?
HI.

Where did you get the top your wearing?
o.o I dunno.

Will you sleep alone tonight?
Yesh. :D I always do. XD

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
Nope. :D

Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?
I dunno.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
I don't want kids. :D

Do you have a little sister?
No, thank God.

What kind of cell phone do you have?
Uh...HUH? How to answer?

Do you have any siblings?
Yesh.

Are you texting anyone?
No. Rare case.

Have you had your birthday yet this year?
Nope.

What is your favorite color?
Dunno.

What is your worst subject in school?
Stupid history. D<

Are you in a relationship?
No. :D

What instant messaging service do you use?
Windows Live Messenger.

Is your phone beside you?
Next to da com.

What color are your eyes?
Brown (?)

Are promises important to you?
Yes yes. :D

What are you sitting on right now?
Bed.

Someone tells you that you're beautiful, you say?
...you siao ah?

Hopes
|| 10:22 PM



lifeswonders:  “If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.” - Flavia Weedn Picture by: Mr_7
“If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.” - Flavia Weedn

You know, it's not that I'm afraid. I'm just...unsure. It's just as Ning said. D: No one actually understands.

"
just freakingly tired.
from the blames
the thoughts.
the problems.
the challenges.
the everything.

just too many questions unanswered.
getting paranoid over the slightest things you can ever imagine.

i made this goal for myself at the start of the year.
it was to forget you.
maybe you will never ever know, how hard it is to do that.
and if ever will i forget you.which i know i must.love.
it will be something i will forget too.

my results. do you really care?no i dont think so.
you didnt even bother to notice how hard i was trying.
i just took a break and you tell me to get on with work and stop playing.
yea.i was playing.
i passed the papers to you to see.thinking that you might care.
no you didnt. you just left the papers at the same postion.
showing you my progress report card.
just a keep up the good work.then getting back at doing your own stuff.
i am not asking you to give me any reward or anything.
but i am trying to ask you to understand me.
it's hard to explain.

ah.i hate myself for having hopes.
cause disappointments are what i get.
it either that or that i am not trying hard enough."
-Xue Ning

Guess in the end, everyone is the same in one way or the other. Just that some get a worse-er deal. D< It's tiring, you know. I'm still human. I have feelings. Always alone to bear the pain, to carry the burden, to fend for myself, to overcome my emotions, to face life. It's damn hard. How would it feel if you were me? But of course you'll never understand. Cuz we live in 2 completely different worlds.Locking up the next paragraph. Ask if you want the code. But I may not tell you, it's not that I hate you, not that I distrust you, just cuz there are things I don't need the whole world to know.

(Tsk.)


(via eightisgreat)
I wish I were as lucky as this boy. D: Haiz.