“life will be better in spring”

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So may things to say, so many things to do... HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FINISH THEM ALL?! Haiz. Yesh, my results are like...epic fails... D: Only 4 A1s, the rest A2s and I flunked my history. Haiz. Stupid results, stupid me. I mean, I know or at least should have expected that I wouldn't even be able to get 5 A1s. My head is just too caught up in the sky. D: I needa transfer to the Academy of Stupid People.

And celery, nonono, don't say you wanna die, cuz there will be people who will miss you, people who will cry for you even if you don't believe it. In fact, if you died, one of the most awesome person in my life would be gone. DDDDDDDDDD:

Haha...wondering why I said all of that when I myself wants to die. D: My reasons are probably selfish or whatever. IT'S NOT UP TO YOU TO JUDGE. Maybe you don't even notice why. When it's just so...obvious. But I guess no one even really cares, so why would they bother noticing? And all the people who care are probably just lying. Or maybe their care is only gonna be short lived. And of all things, I just had to meet you today. I didn't know you were back, we were standing next to each other and you didn't even notice I was there, so much for saying that you would always be there for me even if we were at opposite ends of the Earth. D: And yeah, thanks to the few who actually seem to care. :D haha...I'm glad I know all of you...but I'm hopeless beyond anything ever known. Just drop me. Hahaha...I'm just not worth it. And can someone answer me? Just what the hell is happiness. Why is it that until now, I don't know what it is?