“life will be better in spring”

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but nobody said it was gonna be this hard. /:

Anyway, I forgot...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST YING HOOI!
(:

To Shi Ni... Thank you for being such an awesome friend all this time in Nan Hua and always (almost. d:) accompanying me to the toilet. Hahahaha...the most awesome slug I have ever known. One day MUST get you your star costume. Hehehehe...us and our crazy ideas. Remember the Wonder Labbid saving the dearest Pineapple at the alter? O: You were a very mad slug if you ask me. XD Hehehehe...continue being the...slug that you are but when must run, must run orh. Or else later Gloria have to run many many rounds. O: THE LABBID LOVES YOU A LOT. A LOT MORE THAN YOU LOVE THE POOR OLD LABBID. No, wait, you're older than the labbid. 8D Anyways, really, thanks for being my friend. I really love you a lot...and of course, your mentos too. 8D

To Ying Hooi. Life in Rulang would have been so boring without Sara, Ming Xuan, Bi Ying and you. Thank you so much...before I knew you, I felt so lonely. /: I guess I could say my life brightened up when I first met you. Thanks so much dear. I bet you never knew that though. Thanks for remembering me when you went to all the weird places you went to. (: Always buy me turtle de...== Wood turtle also have, soft toy turtle also have. Hahahaha...I love you a lot also. Why did you go to Crescent? Your brother in Nan Hua got so bad meh? T.T I LOVE YOU. And, a super ultra big happy birthday. (:

I promised I would swallow my tears, that I wouldn't cry but I can't. Especially when I heard the song Because of You. I was literally choking on my tears. But my tears, never came out. It was stuck in my eyes almost like...the way I never actually could let you go. Shit, I know if you saw me in this state, you would scoff and call me "epic fail". I actually wish that you would suddenly appear and say that. I just can't...never mind. I'm sorry. Would you forgive me for crying on the first day? I guess not. You always hated people who cried. All my tears...they were probably held back because of you and now...you're gone. What am I to do? I'm a horrible mess. It's like there was a shipwreck in the sea my heart was. The debris are still there. Teach me to forget, to forgive, please, don't leave my life. I begged that everyday in my heart but you just let go of my hand like that. i wonder how I managed to hold back my tears. Can't you see how important you were to me? I guess you never saw cuz I never mattered. I wish I did. HAHAHAHA...I just made 2 wishes in this tiny paragragh. When will I ever give up...on the surface, I can. All my wishes lied in you. Their all...gone. Forever. Hey sis, I love you.

不是我高高在上，
我也有暗淡的时候，
也有一些时候希望你抬头看一下我；
我只是亩默默祈祷。
只是我爱安静，
喜欢一个人坐者。
我愿意像天空，
从天上望着你，
你却，不会注意到我。

Zheng Mian's reply...almost made me cry. I SUCK.